Friday, September 28, 2012

:::What Can I Say?:::

I had a dream Monday night that blogging friend Jill called me to see what my deal was. In the dream I told her, 'Remember last year when we were sitting at Michelle's dining room table, and I had no idea what to say for myself, about myself, about my life, what I wanted, what I thought I needed? How I couldn't form coherent thoughts about the direction I was taking? How I just didn't know anything? I still feel that way. It's been a year now.'

1. My friend MBC posted a few weeks ago about the many disappointments of Pinterest. How true. I can tell you that the marshmallow-as-frosting trick does not work. Horrible, horrible lie.

I do have a trick that works, but I didn't see it on Pinterest. At a recent Relief Society activity on simplifying, they passed out homemade shower cleaner made from 4 ounces of white vinegar and 4 ounces of blue Dawn detergent. Not sure how crucial it is that it's BLUE Dawn...Anyhow, heat the vinegar in microwave until hot and pour it into a squirt bottle. Add Dawn, put the lid on and gently shake. Spray on tile/fixtures, scrub and rinse. Let soak on tough soap scum overnight then scrub and rinse.

2. I started a new job about a month ago. It's a contract position thing that will probably end in December-ish? Who knows. The work isn't super fancy, but can be interesting. The people are nice. The end.

3. I think about DC every day. I want to go back but don't want to go back at the same time. I still don't feel settled here, but I don't think I ever feel settled anywhere. My visiting teacher told me I have commitment issues. True.

4. My camera broke, so I don't have any recent pictures for you. All the old pictures I have of the past year are on my external hard drive.

5. I've been experimenting with no-knead bread lately. I had a batch ready to bake tonight, but decided to smash it down and roll it out into rectangles instead of making a loaf. This combination is both pleasing to the belly and the eye -- whole wheat flatbread dough topped with sauteed red onions and mushrooms, sliced honeycrisp apple, and blue cheese. A picture would work so well here.

6. It's still hot.


michelle said...

1. I'm so sorry to hear that you're still feeling a little lost. I feel the same way right now and I absolutely hate it.

2. Words cannot express how much I want to eat what you describe in #3.

Jill said...

I love it that you dreamed that I called to see what your deal is, because I've been wondering! I should have called!

I know vinegar is a wonder cleaner, but I like my cleaning products to serve an aromatherapy-type function and it SO doesn't do that!!

I'm not keen on feeling unsettled or having commitment issues, especially because it makes me feel like I lack faith. Do you lack faith?

I'm glad you blogged.

One said...

It can get so exhausting to feel unsettled in the space around you! I've been feeling that way for ages, too - everything smacks of temporary, so I'm not inclined to invest myself. It's not good for my soul, and I've been trying to break the habit. Life doesn't seem to be getting simpler or less frenetic, so it's up to me to make the best of it.

In other news, Hettie says hi. You're still her fave. :-)